“Don’t be afraid of change. Nothing stays the same. Evolution is inevitable.”–
When I was younger I would see life through the eyes of a man that I saw as “everything”! Everything that I wanted to be like, or at least so I imagined. For me, I saw kindness, a sense of generosity, strength, humor, seriousness, and the “desire” to live a life beyond what he saw those around him live even if that meant he had to sacrifice doing it the “right” way. I saw a life of “glamour” or my [Naive] definition of it and it all was formulated through the eyes of my Grandfather. But soon I gained a new set of eyes from another man who held the same qualities of the pair I had before, but this one had something a little bit more. These eyes held the view that life shouldn’t require much responsibility, commitment, truth, or sacrifice. These new pair of eyes were from my Father, who I met for the first time at the age of 9 or 10. And it was not until this point in my whole life that I learned that life was better when you were free to do whatever you wanted to do without structure or restraint. OR at least that’s what these new pair of eyes taught me. I watched my Father never be responsible for the raising of ANY of his children, having several women, have no true stability in a career, spend his free time drinking & hanging out with friends, and having his happiness depend on the amount of money he had at the time. Through these eyes I often saw drama, disrespect, ego, kindness (but often with a cost), manipulation, a hard worker, and loyalty towards his family that he endured much of his life’s struggles/rewards with.
But then by age 13, after my big transition to a new city & new life, I received a new set of eyes again. And I must say that these eyes were far different from the ones I’ve experienced before. These eyes showed me how to look within myself and see that I could be better. These eyes taught me to see others & even revealed some of my greatest enemies. They allowed me to see the broken places and holes in many of my relationships. These eyes showed me that “death”, like the death of my Grandfather served a greater purpose for me and was far beyond just a loss. That it forced me to stand on my own & not rely on anyone else’s strength or comfort. These eyes taught me that the death of various relationships in my life are for the better no matter how painful. And now at 25, these eyes have allowed me to see that all of my struggles and hardships were only present because they were meant to cultivate me and push me towards the “better” that I can now see. It’s through these eyes that I’ve been able to see that I want so much more than I’ve seen done by my parents and their parents and their parents. I’ve been able to see a world far beyond the world I’ve been familiar with. I’m able to see “better” for my child and other children in the future. And because of these new pair of eyes, I can now see that the things I was exposed to, are the very tools that I need to be the [best Mom] that I can be in so many ways. I’m thankful for these set of eyes. I’m thankful for this view that has evolved and [changed] into something BIGGER from the first time I was able to see through eyes. These eyes are that of Jesus and He has taught me so much.
These eyes have even given me the ability to envision earthly love more purely and unconditional than I’ve ever witnessed before. He’s given me the chance to view life from the eyes of another man from time to time, so that I can keep a positive perspective on the things that life can truly be. These eyes are that of my husband. His eyes have taught me so much also. It was his eyes that taught me that I am indeed worthy of love, even with my flaws and all. These eyes taught me a form of dedication, determination, vigor, calmness, and confidence that I never knew. It was only through these eyes that I could ever be exposed to such amazing experiences. And somehow, it often felt like Jesus’ eyes and those of my husband would emerge immensely to create one set of eyes so that I could see myself and my life as something MORE than what I was told and neglected to be taught. So now, despite the many male eyes that I’ve been able to look through from the time of being a child until now, I must say that I’ve learned quite a bit. Through some eyes (some of which I haven’t mentioned also) has taught me the negative and limited sides of life and avenues that often lead to a life with no true value/purpose. While other eyes (especially the eyes of Jesus) have showed me that there is so much more out there for us to be and encounter. We just have to change our view! And it all starts from CHANGING YOUR MIND!! Keep encouraged my Beautiful Peeps! XOxo
Yours Truly, S.
P.S. REMEMBER THAT EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON (GOOD+BAD). EVERY THING OR PERSON YOU ENCOUNTER IS THERE TO TEACH YOU SOMETHING, WHETHER IF IT’S WHAT TO BE OR WHAT NOT TO BE! JUST CONTINUE TO GROW & BE THE BEST YOU CAN BE. BECAUSE A LIFE NEVER “LIVED” IS A LIFE NOT WORTH LIVING AT ALL.